I start this off with a very deep sigh, rub my eyes, look up on my wall to see the picture that hangs of my precious Jesus, and begin to type…
Over the past several years, I have truly lived some of the best years of my life. I have found true love, traveled, fulfilled a lifelong dream of writing a book, and have experienced becoming a grandmother. Among these I have also found health; to a level that I have not experienced before. Everything that had ailed me over my lifetime was basically put to end. How? I would have to say by the Grace of God. He showed me the way and opened my eyes. No doctor had ever healed me. But as my eyes, heart and mind opened, I began to listen to my own body speak. Nothing has pleased me more than to share my story with whoever chooses to hear it. Writing The ME-gan Lifestyle was one of the biggest pleasures of my life.
4 years later, after changing my lifestyle, I have encountered storms that I don’t feel I can weather. I know I will, but the road is long. Being that my life has always been an open book to friends and family, I sure don’t mind sharing this either.
First of all, I have reached the ripe old age where hormones begin to change, and let me tell you, the winds of change are blowing! I don’t even like being around myself, I can’t imagine how frustrating it must be for my husband to deal with me. I say this with a half-smile, but it is serious business. I’m happy one minute, sad the next; hot one minute, cold the next…oh my – my wits are at end, and yet it’s just beginning! Does anything really ever prepare us for getting older? Along with these changes, come the demon cravings. Everything (food wise) that I have worked so hard to remove from my diet to achieve the better health I’ve longed for, seems to be tempting me slowly, but surely, to come back in. It’s just not fair! But please, put away your violins, I’m not after pity, just speaking the truth. I hear that these womanly changes aren’t as bad for some as for others, yet wouldn’t you know…I experience ALL the possible symptoms to the nth degree! Although I may wander off the ME-gan path until I can regain composure and take control of my hormones & life once again, the truth remains in what it teaches.
I believe that nothing truly good ever comes to us ‘easy.’ We will always face struggles; I call it battling our demons.
When we want something bad enough – for example, better health & happiness, it’s worth every bit of the effort! I may be knocked down temporarily due to these changes, but I’ll get up again! And you know me, I’ll write a book about it!
Now, on to my other storm, or perhaps I should say “battle,” or even better yet…”MOUNTAIN!” A mountain I may never climb. Those of you who know me, know that my son, Nathan, served in two wars; both the Iraq and the Afghanistan wars. He’s my hero! Actually, ALL of our troops are true heroes! They serve(d) our country for our freedom. What more needs to be said? May God be with each and every one of them. Nathan returned from war a broken person. I use the word broken, because of all the words I can possibly think of, this is the one that I feel describes the situation best. When something doesn’t work right anymore, it’s broken. I have no idea what happened over there. I have no idea what happened to him. All I know is the little, beautiful, fun-loving boy that I raised into a kind, humorous, loving, responsible young man, is no longer. In short, he too is battling his demons.
1 Thessalonians 5:18; Render constant thanks; such as God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
My heart is consumed with love, pain and concern for my son, his wife, and my beautiful grandson. Often when I cry now, because my heart is broken, I blame it on my hormones.
The truth is, life can’t always be a bowl of cherries; but you can be assured as well, it can’t always be a bowl of pits. There will always be ups and downs; that’s life. Keep the faith. The good book says that our dear Lord will not give us anything we cannot handle, so I must always remind myself that the bigger the mountain is, the stronger it is I am! I’m a giant!
At this time in my life, I’m stepping away from my blog and book. It’s an imprint now; a permanent part of this beautiful world we live in; a chapter in my life that I have shared with you. If it can help just one single person, then I have achieved what I sought after.
What can you do for me? Pray for my son and his family. God is great; may His ‘WILL’ be done! God bless you all.
We must all face and battle our demons. We will win if we choose. Battles take time, faith, commitment and prayer. Don’t ever give up! Some battles may last a lifetime, but in the end…we win!
ME-ganly THANKFUL love to you all!
God bless our troops, veterans and THE good’ol USA!